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http://vitriolNhumorPublicEnough.blogspot.com Taken from Archived Word Page, sentiments still current -- Friday, August 26, 2005, 7:12:08 AM
Wed., November 10, 2004, 7:58 AM I want: freedom! Freedom that comes only when I have enough money to pay for all I decide is important to me. I want, with all my heart, with all my might, with all my mind, with all my strength, with every fiber of my being; to pay my way in life. I want to pay for as fine a roof over my head as I could ever choose for any reason or any number of people I might desire to have with me. I want to be able to pay cash for any car or other vehicle I want to drive and with the luxuries available to it that I choose for my purposes. I want to be able to pay for every necessity for that vehicle, and in advance whenever I choose: licensing, insurance, tires, maintenance, etc. and any accessories I find that I would like to have with it. I would like to be able to shop for items, and in stores where I never have before, or where my experience in doing so feels as though it has been way too limited; such as: furniture stores, Saks Fifth Avenue, high end book stores, electronic stores, and so on. I want to pay my utilities ahead, at least three months and some of my bills, at least a year ahead. I WANT to pay off all of my debt from my last set of Manic-Depressive episodes. I desire, sincerely, to keep my tithing current and to pay back tithing. I want to have a laptop with all the necessary bells and whistles to do my business away from home, whether traveling, tutoring or teaching. I want to be completely comfortably established in California & able to visit family & friends.
11:37 AM I may be ready to go find a J-O-B. That, in no way means I will not continue to pursue my home businesses. It only means I need money. I do believe I will pursue calling about tutoring others.
Glenn and Janel both appeared at my door this morning as I was racing to leave for my 2nd appt. at ME’s, this one with Glendoral for Presentations, so after putting out my first flyers for Tutoring, when I got home I met with Janel about when???? was I going to pay them. Now, I have returned from handing Glenn an apology letter for Janel abt. my behavior (cavalier). Though I have real concerns, somehow I almost rejoiced after talking with her this afternoon, and find now I’m feeling very good. I have been clarifying my wanting regarding money and I think that’s a lot of it.